Yan's Footprints

It takes 4 seconds to switch from one MSN group to another

It takes 9 seconds to change a ring tone

I can put a new wallpaper on my cellphone in 16 seconds

I can do a different wellcome quote on my mobile in 21 seconds

 

Also,

It takes 48 seconds to delete 1119 messages

How long does it need to erase some other things?

 

Just 6 days to go to the anniverary, and then there is none.

Happy November 11...

 

 

 

 

I did think about updating my space during these 60 days.

I did want to write something to express what I felt and went through.

I did have little time to sit down and start doing some production.

I just have been too tired.

Life does not get enriched, it is just being repeated, and extended.

Sometimes I do think it is time.

It is perhaps just not the right one I am looking for.

It is okay I guess, in most of the time.

I can still wait. I can afford it.

Maybe I really need to put down some words, before I leave them for yesterday.

Maybe I should have a new blog done, before I get too tired to live my life.

 

 

 

I delected my last entry because the pictures about those tatooed pigs can't be shown anymore. I loved the LV-tatooed pig the best. Well, I think it is pointless to keep the entry hanging without all the pictures. Sorry for those who left comments, which unfortunately are gone with the entry.

How long have I not updated my space? A month or two? Life pace suddenly sped up, a lot. Somehow it is a new taste of life; i mean, getting this busy can't be always as bad as what we are always told. Being busy with what you are willing to can be fun; or more accurately, it can be meaningful. A spot where you can learn things and show talent is what everyone wants. I know what my weaknesses are, and this is the chance to strenthen them up; I know why I came back last August, and this is what I aimed for.

Only one thing that I may get upset. I don't really have the time to look for or date some girl I am interested in. Well... as a guy, I in most cases have to be career oriented at my age. This is the the nature and pressure of the society - get your own life; live on your own!

I also missed my gym in the past few weeks, even in the weekend. It ain't good. I sit all day at home during the weekend, in the couch or on my chair, not willing to move my butt a bit. Un-fucking-believable!

By the way, let me give myself a late celebration of my anniversary of coming back home. That's right, August 14, one of the days to remember.

Another thing happened during this a-while time is that i decided to change my English speaking habbit. This time is for real. Slow down first, and try to avoid those the so called hip-hop English. Do not let them just jump out of my mouth like a launched rocket. No more "what's up", get used to "pleased to meet you"; no more "yea" or "yep", use "yes"; no more "you know...", nobody knows but I do, and I have to.

Be a nice but tough guy; be low-key...

I am serious...

Temperature remains at 37 degrees, and according to the weather forecast, it will be 39 degrees highest tomorrow.  A friend of mine's conclusion of this weather was kinda cute - the planet used to live on was not as hot as this one.

When you are living under this weather, you are so unenthusiastic to do anything. We get lazy and drowsy. Once you step out of the door, you can feel the heat right coming at you - welcome to the reality; it is so this hot!

My dad always says he can't live without a TV and newspapers. Maybe he should be thankful that he is not in Shanghai right now; otherwise, A/C will become another thing he has to live with.

Desiree's MSN title was "dress as short as you can at the weekend" today. And I followed her by changing my title to "it's gettin' hotter in here, so take off all your clothes" (I guess Nelly will not sue me for copyrights or things like this). And hers was just one of many MSN weather-related titles I have seen these days. Under this kind of weather, you can't avoid talking about it, and complaining of it.  

It is this hot; and I believe no one would like to go outside if not necessary.

Over...

 

I said this week is weird to me.

Almost nothing went to which I wanted.

Plans failed.

Things were broken.

On-the-job suddenly became the same as off-work.

Nearly the whole week got watesd.

Friends are too busy doing everything.

Some is doing something to the extend I did not expect.

Some may just take solicitude too easily.

 

I am a bit upset.

I am kinda disappointed.

I was lost within this week.

 

I am not blaming on anyone.

Nobody has done anything wrong, from their point of view.

I am not that kind of guy who does not know how to understand others by putting myself into their shoes.

I am very clear with my bias, weaknesses and disadvantages.

Everyone has got its life to live with, in its own style.

Everyone has got its reasons and excuses that absolutely make sense and are totally acceptable, by any means.

It is perhaps just a tough week for me.

I did put a smiling face on in front of most of the people.

But inside I know that my temper got boosted and my patience has gone down.

 

I am just upset and disappointed.

And hopefully it has not and will not affect anyone.

And hope I hid it well.

 

Nothing went right this week.

My A/C went broken to start this terrible week. The remote control showed me the cooler is on, but it just kept blowing heat out. Ten munutes after, it stopped, not working anymore, which according to what Emi defined: he is thinking, thinking deep. Fine, think something right then. Half an hour later, I guess the A/C had finally come up with something: continuing to blow heat out...

Then it's my laptop's turn; more accurately, a part of my sound card stopped working: no voice input can be detected. Although I liked the Dell tech. guy who picked my call and who really tried to help, his strong cantonees accent made me confused since we started, and I later on figured out that he actually did not quite understand my standard manderin either...

My two cellphone batteris are the third to begin the strike this week. They somehow refused to be fully charged, which caused me to switch batteries every day, unpredictablely; and mostly just went dead in the middle of calls. So I picked up some homework I left few months ago: to find a new cell to buy just in case. Unfortunately, as a big fan of Nokia, I could find any that fits my simple criteria: nice appearance and simple features...

Besides the electronics taking breaks one by one, my holiday plan has not gone to anywhere yet. I want to go to Sanya, but those who wanted to go with me suddenly called the delay. But I can't wait, seriously I can't wait. The beautiful beach has come out in my dream since I started planning; and I do need a break to get back on my condition. On top of all these, I am very free this month and this month only...

Another thing - I'm living alone again, which to me is not a good thing, especially in this kind of weather that makes you believe you are on Mars. Figuring where to go for dinner everyday is really, truely, a-hundred-percent abolutely and particularly pain in the ass. Here cooking myself is not an optiopn when I will cook for me and me only in a kitchen hot like hell... 

The most important comes last. I swear the god I would never ever use any product from CNC. This stupid communication company does nothing but bureaucratism. A simple internet switch costs at least 10 business days to conduct! What is this?! Today is the fifth business day after our company applied for the switch, and what we heard from their rep. is they still don't know where in their stupid process our application has been gone through. In other words, they are still not sure when we will get our internet switched...

I am going through a weird week. So if I have yelled or seemed to have yelled at anyone, or ruined anyone's good mood, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that.

Couple days ago, a friend of mine told me that she saw someone we used to know in Canada at Raffel City, someone I haven't seen for a long time. He came back.

Coupld days after today, a friend of mine will head to a very new place to start a new journey. She is leaving.

 

People come and go, just like the earth turns, never stops. 

We are all walking on different paths, which lead us to another new one. There are so many interactions along the way, which allows us to make new friends, and creating new roles in our stories.

 

Life changes directions, in any way we can imagine.

Life has ups and downs, with which it can only be categorized as rich and colorful.

It may be confusing at the very beginning becasue we can do nothing but adaptation. The unknown is the most scary thing; however, it can also be the most expected thing.

 

I am not saying that it is the right attitude of going wherever life takes. I am not talking about just accepting the changes either.

You are going on a way you might have never thought about before. You are going towards a direction that may change your entire life after.

You are creating your own history, starting from a brand new chapter of your story.

Just like what I always say, smile to what in front of you, and let this smile start shining on you first.

Realities can be disappointed, sad, shocking, but everyone has to take and go with it

When you are no longer fresh...

This is the first song I heard after I turned on my player, and is the first song I tried to listen, carefully, since a long long time.

I don't remember when I downloaded it, but I'm just loving it, and am listening to it over and over.

Maybe because I am pretty messed now.

And this song, I don't know, sort of gets there.

 

 

Kiss me, goodbye, gone~too soon

I did give you my heart can't deny

Hold on, let go, never sure

Only can make believe all this time

Coffee, cigarettes, not my style

Petty faces around but not rhymed

Don't cry, won't cry, I won't cry

Be with you I just close my eyes

So far alway I can hardly make you mine

So long the day you are always on my mind

But in my dreams never try to hold you tight

Don't want awake find you ain't here by my side

Da....Ha...
So far alway I can hardly make you mine

So long the day you are always on my mind

But in my dreams never try to hold you tight

Don't want awake find you ain't here by my side

So far alway I can hardly make you mine
So long the day you are always on my mind

But in my dreams never try to hold you tight

Don't want awake find you ain't here by my side

When I wake up hope you were here by my side......

 

Just use this song to celebrate and memorize a fact...

 

P.S. MSN Space is down again, for so long already. I can't upload my new backgroup music...

Stupid MSN Space!

 

Stupid me!

Time flies.

Especially during the holidays.

Everybody knows it, so do I. However, at the end of the holiday, I still feel sorry for myself when I looked back. It is not like I was doing nothing or meaningless things during these 7 days. Actually I can count the stuff I remember I have done since the beginning of this holiday; and none of them can be categorized as wasting-of-time by definition. But the thing is, if I sum up the time I have spent on these things I call worth-of-doing, and count the time I spent on sleep, eat and some other necessary daily stuff in, it is just 3 quarters of the time of the past 5 or 6 days. So this brings the question, what else was I doing?

I can't remember. I tried to flash back to find some clues, but there is none. This is why I feel sorry. I think for me, it is okay if I know what I am doing even it does not make sense to me at all; at least I know how time passes. But now, I am like someone who has lost part of his memory; and it makes me feel not good.

In other words, not knowing how my time is gone is like suiciding myself, slowly.

 

 

                        

早上10点到10点50分，从家去华师大闵行校区，99元；临到下车的时候接了个电话，结果忘记拿发票了，哭死。。。

下午1点半到1点40分，从华师大闵行校区到交大闵行校区，11元；同行的影天帮忙做校园推广的朋友提醒，拿了发票，感激ing。。。

下午3点到4点半，从交大闵行校区到公司，132元；车到的时候等愣愣的等发票打印好了拿到手了才付了钱，从来没打过那么贵的车。。。

晚上6点到6点半，从公司到上师大桂林路校区，30元；也是等发票到手了才付钱，看司机的眼神似乎觉得我打算坐霸王车，郁闷一下。。。

晚上8点45分到9点10分，从上师大到淮海西路，25元；要发票也没用了。。。

晚上11点半，坐车回家；瞌睡的很，付了钱直接走人。。。